Sakit perut

Mulessssssssssss terus, aduh ... jangan-jangan aku udah mulai kontraksi nih? Padahal masih 32 weeks .. Well, aku baca sih itu katanya False Labor Symptoms. False sih false ... tapi sakitnya tetep aja sakit ...

Mungkin aku terlalu sering jalan jalan, mana masih heboh nenteng belanjaan dari Target atau KamLun lagi. Kalo papamu tahu, aku bisa diomelin ... emang udah sih, tapi ya bagaimana lagi, masak aku mau di rumah aja seharian .. bete donks. Lagian mungkin juga aku kecentilan ... udah hamil tua juga masih sok kuat. Dylan sih enak aja, diayun-ayun dalam perut, sementara mama menggeh-menggeh jalan. Kata Oma Angie, yang namanya anak itu selalu enak .. lebih enak daripada orang tua ... Entar tapi pasti dibales ama anaknya lagi ... haha .. ember sih ... mama hanya bisa nyengir aja.

Udah gitu Dylan kalo nendang kuaaat banget, sakit tuh, .. tapi mama senengnya kalo Dylan lagi gerak terus tiba-tiba kepalanya nongol di sebelah kanan (atau kiri juga sih) ... terus bisa ku elus-elus. Yang lucunya ... kelihatannya kalo lagi ada lagu dengan beat keras di TV atau radio, Dylan ikutan gerak-gerak ... Kamu suka dance ya nak?

I see it, I see it

Dylan .. Dylan ... you move a lot at night. I start to see your movement visibly with my eyes. Not merely just a feel of your kick and punch. You make my belly distorted in a way that I always long to see. When you do that, ... I'll pull up my shirt and watch the show ... I imagine you are stretching inside .. like a lil puttytat .. hehe ..

Right now, I feel like you're moving a lot, accompany me on my sleepless night. I just wonder sometimes how I will miss this moment that I know someone's with me. Cause when you're alone ... you always have me, just like now.


Sade - By Your Side

You think i'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you want
and if only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me

When you're on the outside baby and you can't get in
I will show you you're so much better than you know
When you're lost and you're alone and you cant get back again
I will find you darling and i will bring you home

and if you want to cry
I am here to dry your eyes
and in no time
You'll be fine

You think I'd leave your side baby
You know me better than that
You think I'd leave you down when you're down on your knees
I wouldn't do that
I'll tell you you're right when you want
and if only you could see into me

Oh when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
When you're low
I'll be there
By your side baby

Oh when you're cold
I'll be there
Hold you tight to me
Oh when you're low
I'll be there
by your side baby

Safe and Warm

Akhir-akhir ini aku sering mimpi atau berandai-andai kalo Dylan udah lahir. Aku cuman bisa berharap dan berdoa semoga selama ini dia nyaman di dalam perutku hingga nanti. Aku pengen sekali mom ada di sini when the baby's due. Masalahnya we all don't know for sure exactly on what day he chooses to be born. I think I prefer to have mom with me in the delivery room than my husband. Pasti dia lemes ngeliat aku so in pain. Sekarang aja kalo diceritain gimana bakal entar aja dia udah merinding. Men are so weak sometimes .. haha .. that's true.

Mom said she wanted to be here when the baby's born. I think that'd be cool. Please cooperate, ok little one .. Don't you wanna see Oma Angie right away?
Yah, ginilah resikonya kalo jauh dari ibunda, .. that's why they create airplanes I guess .. *stupid remark*

Kulitku mulai stretch, ... yah aku pasrah aja mo bisa apa, hanya rajin-rajin kukasih cocoa butter biar moist. It's the part of being a mother. I know I'll get the stretchmark, it runs in the family. I hope I could get my shape back afterwards ... I've never been this fat in my life before. Quite scarry sometimes, but hey .. I have a baby.

Out of Fashion State

Dulu maunya trendi melulu pake baju nggak mau kayak ibu2 hamil, tapi apa daya sekarang udah mulai melar, pengennya pake daster mlulu ... kalo pake celana jeans maternity juga tetep aja sakit, kayak didesek gitu.

Aku sering nonton channel 115 Discovery Health, banyak banget yang mengupas Birth Stories, kali buat persiapan mental aja on the "labor day". Ada yang berproblem, ada yang lancar lancar aja. Yah, kadang aku jadi kepikiran if something's gonna happen. Apakah dia bakal lahir normal, lengkap dengan ten fingers and ten toes nya? Apakah dia cukup gizi dan vitamin? Hal2 yang kayaknya sepele tapi jadi kepikiran. Emang sih katanya normal pada awal2 third trisemester gini kalo calon ibu mulai dihinggapi rasa cemas. Belum mikirin kalo entar ngelahirin ... hahaha ... (ketawa takut .. goblog).

On week 30:

By this week, your baby's senses are developed to the point where she can taste, touch, see, and hear what's going on around her. She'll also react to stimuli--for instance, if you poke your belly, she may kick or hit back at the spot you've touched. It's exciting to interact with your baby even before she's born. Try rubbing your belly and talking gently to her when she kicks--you may find that you're already able to calm her down.

(source: American Baby website)