Clinic

Check in to the Clinic today. Doctor said Dylan was okay and still around 5 pound, which is kinda small, and I'm already this big, gosh ...

Baby Dylan will still have time to develop for next 3 weeks. His head is already at the bottom, putting pressure on my pelvic, it really gives me a lot of tension when I walk.

Anton is sooo nice to me, I feel like I can't ask more for a husband. He's been so supporting and hold my hands all the time. He even massages my back and my feet!! How I love those treat! I can't even think of making love now, so feet massage feels like orgasm. *smirk* awww ... my cookie. I know he will blush or even upset if he found this out ... naaaahh.

To be Able

Last night I told mom that I just bought a crib, she told me when she had me as a baby, ma and pa couldn't afford to buy a baby crib. So I slept with mom on the bed and pa slept on the floor.

I say to myself, we are lucky to be able to afford a little bit of luxury to Dylan. Thank you God.

CRIB

Beli crib, mattress, and diaper bags di BabiesR'US today.. wooo ... akhirnya. Agak legaan deh. Cribnya nggak sesuai rencana semula. Akhirnya aku decide untuk beli yang Jenny Lind aja .. karena harganya jauh lebih murah dan nggak kalah cutenya ... bisa juga di convert ke toddler bed. Crib for $110 is a deal, aku searching and compare nya udah setengah mati ... Lagian udah banyak banget orang yang pake ... jadi I kinda count on other moms opinions.

Sebenernya udah nggak sabar banget masang itu crib, tapi apa daya, Anton kecapekan .... berat bok buat ngangkat2 ke atas gitu. Kalo habis laundry kayaknya dah nggak mau ngapa2in lagi .. teler ...

Tadi di jalan perutku krammm sekali, .. sakitnya bok ... kontraksi untuk persiapan the Real Labor kali ya ... yahh, tobat deh. Oh, now I feel it again, right at this moment. It feels like my uterus is tighten and the skin stretches ..

Btw, Ifan and Maria have the baby girl today, delivered by CSection. She is a healthy baby, the proud father says. She supposes to be born 2 days before Dylan's EDD. They're about the same age :). Maria has a lot of problem before but gratefully baby Samantha is safely delivered to this world. I can't wait to see them ... well, Anton is somehow more anxious than me.

I'm so nervous on these final weeks of mine ... Will I be ready for this whole thing? Being a first time mother is apparently a lot of turnmoil. I always want to be a mother, but still sometimes I feel like ... Will I be competent enough to be one?

Maybe that's why first born is always special ...

Susah Nafas and Stretch Mark

Kok aku feelingnya, Dylan bakal maju ya ... soalnya udah kerasa banget dia turun ke bawah. Kemaren periksa di clinic, dokter juga bilang gitu. He's ready for his birth. But I read articles, it doesn't always happen that way. The baby can drop at the bottom, but the birth process can be late up to 2 weeks after EDT (Estimated Due Time). Wah ... please jangan telat yo nak, ... mama udah nggak sabar pengen liat kamu.

Susah ambekan sekarang, ... apalagi kalo habis makan ... atau lagi tiduran posis tertentu. Dylan pushes mama's lung ... yah, yang penting kamu tumbuh berkembang dengan bener.. Susah² sitik aku yo ora popo.

Kadang aku sedih ngeliat stretchmarkku ... I got to think that woman's body has to go through so much changes. And I think of the stretch mark as not just a sign of degradation, but more as a sign of love and devotion. Ngayem-ngayemi ati dhewe .. huehehe.

Hospital Tour

Hari ini kita ke New York Hospital Queens ... they gave us a free tour so we know where to go when it's time to deliver the baby. We were 5 minutes late and everything went so confusing because the tour left already ... Up to 3rd Floor, back again to 2nd Floor ... my oh my ... I was quite desperate. Luckily we found them, .. and the lady, Marietta Tulsan, who guided the tour was very nice. She actually gave us another tour for the first 15 minutes that we missed. She thought I was Filipino .. yeah, right .. always the same guess.

I actually write this down, so I can recall it next time I need to refresh my memory. First, I have to go on the Third Floor, .. Examination Room, where the doctor will see how I'm doing, check the baby with the scanner and etc etc. If the doctor thinks it's the right time, then I will be hauled to the Labor Delivery Room (LDR).

I am expected to have a bag full of supplies which includes nursery bra, night gown, etc etc. I can't bring anything that needs to be plugged on. I'll check on WHAT TO PACK TO HOSPITAL for sure.

The LDR is the place where I'm gonna deliver the baby. It was not intimidating at all and actually look quite like a hotel room, even with the machine that can give me soft warm blanket which I can choose the temperature!!! Sweeeettt ....
The best part is that I can have two people to accompany me in that room. I can't expect my hubby to hold my hand ... I'd rather have MOM next to me. If he's strong enough to see his wife struggling ... then he's more than welcome to join me. Men .. so weak sometimes. LOL.

Afterwards, we went on to see the Baby's Room. I saw one little baby by the glass window. It was so cute, and I think of him as Dylan in that crib wrapped so tightly by a blanket. Lucuneeeeee ..... hehe .. jadi ketawa-ketiwi sendiri.
The baby, the mother and the father will be given a bracelet each to indicate relationships, plus the baby will be given an anklet that functions as an alarm that will goes off if it passes the elevator. So no baby kidnapping worry. Oh and the baby and the mother will be fingerprinted right after the delivery to match the identity.

Then, we went back to the 2nd Floor, that's the bedroom for after delivery. Everything seems nice and they actually have half of the rooms there as private rooms. I just hope I can get one ... First time first serve basis anyway, so one can only hope ... The father can come in as early as 5 AM and go home at 1 or 2 AM, but he can't stay in. The grandparents and siblings can came in from 10 AM to 8 PM, while other guests from 12 PM to 6 or 8 PM, I don't remember exactly.

In the bedroom, there will be a crib for the baby if the mother wants her baby to stay with her. I can call the nurse if I want to put the baby back to the Baby's Room along with his friends. And there will be a nurse that will teach me how to nurse the baby. I'll be staying on the hospital for two days after the delivery.

Everything sounds good.
Ok, That's a wrap.

Just One

The clock is ticking ...
I'm 8 months pregnant now.
Soon Dylan will be out of me, and I wonder if I will miss the sense of it.

I'm out of breath so easily ...
And my back hurts a lot.
But I love the idea of my body wrap around him.
I think of my womb as his cradle ...

Swing you to the left ..
Swing you to the right ...
Till then, you're all mine, son.